I've been meaning to come up with a new hobby since this insomnia is becoming ever more frequent these days. It's not even that I'm uncomfortable, it's just that I'm completely wide awake for 2-4 hour windows in the middle of the night for no apparent reason. And now I get really excited when I wake up in the morning and realize I made it through the entire night sleeping... Well, minus the expected 2-3 bathroom visits of course. Is this just practical preparation for parenthood? :)
Maybe it's the excitement that's getting to me. I know (supposedly) I have 5 more weeks left before we meet Lil' Man, but it seems so close now! And when I do sleep, I honestly wake up most mornings and kind of forget I'm pregnant... of course I quickly remember as I have to very literally "roll" out of bed... and it's like a whole new gift every morning.
It makes me think about other nights where the excitement is just too much and I can't sleep, like...
... the night before our wedding...
... the night before I moved to Costa Rica for a semester (well, more like the 2 hours I slept before my early morning flight since I put off packing until the VERY last minute, like always... Why is packing such a dreaded task???)...
... the last night of living in a dorm...
... the last night of living with my roommates...
... the night after the phone call with Tracey where we suddenly weren't just "good friends" anymore, and what the heck did that mean?? ...
... the night after we Skyped with Doug and knew Chile was exactly what God had for us...
... any night before taking a flight somewhere, (again excitement, but more likely due to my packing issue...)
... the night before my first day of teaching...
... the night before my last day of teaching...
... the night before my first half-marathon, (not a great time to not sleep...)
... the night before we knew we'd be picking Mere up from the airport... and then Joelpants and Claire a year later... and Jules if I had known she'd be flying in...
All these sleepless nights, including the present ones, just make me more and more grateful for the life I have already lived, the one I'm in today, and ALL the unknowns of my life in the future. And even if that includes sleepless nights that are due more to crying babies than they are to the excitement of the unknown... well then, bring it. It may not feel exciting at 3:00 in the morning or the next day when I feel like I've been hit by a bus... but as far as long-term excitement, you are already worth it Lil' Man!
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